date: Friday, November 5, 2010 @ 11:07 PM
title: goodbye my lover
"its tough to say goodbye
nobody likes change
but part of life is learning to let go"
GOODBYE BLOGGER.
and hello wordpress :]
collectionofthinks.wordpress.com
there isn't anything up there but i promise i will soon :D
i quite like the quote from above
its from modern family which i am currently TOTALLY obsessed with.. YAY
when im older i hope my family could stay together like that and be acceptive of everyone's differences :D
date: Tuesday, September 28, 2010 @ 12:08 PM
title: An extended response...
Currently blogging with the iPad. This blog is basically to tell you guys that I won't be blogging much during these few hsc days but then at the same time, you guys shouldn't really be wasting time reading blogs, rather you should be studying...
... So that's all really... Ciao for now!
date: Sunday, September 19, 2010 @ 1:43 AM
title: down the drain
goes my dream of getting into unsw law
because i read the small print of the application form for bonus points and realised that my achievements should be within year 11 - 12
my first reaction was LOL i can just photoshop the number to a year later
but that is bad and cheating so i shant do that
so.. there goes my dream.
sad face.
date: Tuesday, September 7, 2010 @ 4:28 PM
title: strangely judgemental
essentially it is bad to judge.
but we all do it, somehow.
some of us will judge by appearance, by race, money, height , intelligence.
but lately i feel as though im judging friends or people i don't know by their views of the current political environment
i don't feel like im a feminist, or i'm a huge labor fan, but for some reason, i get slightly pissed off when people bagg out the labor government.
or before the election, i was really negative towards those who decided to 'donkey vote' or not take their vote seriously. i know it might feel as though its only ' one vote in the millions ' but i still believe that suffrage is a human right that too many of us Australians take for granted.
am i just a result of 2 years of legal studies education? i don't know.
but i am strangly defensive over the labor government
and when people go like 'gillard is such a backstabber' for what she has done to K-rudd. i will always give the boat analogy;
in my eyes, what gillard did wasn't nice, or loving or caring or worth the nobel peace prize but it had to be done.
pretend k-rudd was the captain and gillard the vice-captain of a ship. this ship is called AUSTRALIA.
so k-rudd did a few good things do this ship called australia. swerved it out of a incredible storm called 'recession' but now the ship is sinking. quickly.
so it is the responsibility of gillard, the vice captain to stop this ship called AUSTRALIA and take over the captaincy (is that even a word?)
and its not like julia did this by herself, she had the support of the majority of the crew members, so technically what she did was democratic? and even k-rudd doesn't have any hard feelings, so why should any of us have hard feelings???
ok end of my random political rant.
thats a lie. for all those who said 'OH NOES WE ARE IN SO MUCH DEBT' im sorry but didn't we just get out of the GFC? look at greece.
ok.. end of rant.
date: Tuesday, August 31, 2010 @ 1:42 AM
title: disappointment.
sucks.
today i got back the marks for 3 of my trials.
*groan*
blablabla scaling blablabla its okay because you did good before blablabla it was a hard trial, don't worry blablabla hornsby always scales english like crazy blablabla blablablabla God will provide blablabla God has plans blablablablabla
ive heard those words so many times it doesn't mean anything.
doesn't make the red mark in front of my page any higher.
katie tells me that i put myself in a standard within a standard.
mum says i put myself in my own standard, in a standard within a standard OMG LEVELS LIKE INCEPTION.
why can't i just be smart.. why?
date: Wednesday, August 25, 2010 @ 12:14 AM
title: best friends forever?
so half the reason why i love trials
is because i get to watch 'ellen' and 'the view' nearly every day from 12 - 2pm.
and a topic that they have been talking a lot on the view is the whole 'can a girl and guy be best friends'. seems like quite the popular topic to talk about.
and ive come to the realisation of something.
being best friends with someone from the opposite gender only means 2 things.
1) one of you will end up falling for the other (hopefully at the same time to minimise heartbreak)
or
2) one of the friends will get a girlfriend/boyfriend/significant other which means that inevitably the friendship with your 'best-friend-from-the-other-gender' will indeed suffer and you wont talk anymore
ultimately, you wont end up 'best friends forever" .
it will either become something more, or something less.
unless both of you stay single and miraculously somehow not develop feelings for each other.
possible, but not likely.
ultimately i think the term 'best friend' is a term ill attempt to refrain from using
because i think not only do you place a large amount of hope and expectations on that person
that person has a whole lot of pressure to live up to the term.
to always be the 'best'.
like it should come naturally
but what if it doesn't.
like, whats wrong with a 'close friend'?
anyway off to study.
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i think the only thing i like about trials is the opportunity to watch ellen and the view and sleep in.
although they are both very very valid reasons.
3 painful weeks +
7 long exams +
hours of cramming +
2 breakdowns +
lots of junk/study food+
more hours of procrastination +
guilty nights +
guilty mornings +
guilty afternoons +
feelings of worthlessness / stupidity
= TRIALS
but on the up side. RICE was good. shall blog about it later.
date: Monday, August 23, 2010 @ 6:24 PM
title: finding it immensely difficult to study
so im finding it immensely difficult to study in my 8 day weekend
and not waste it and leave it to the last minute, like always
so i have implemented a few strategies to make me study.
the study timetable
so ms whalan told us to make a study timetable for the trials
so i did. i did a plan for the whole month.
and it worked for a week. it did give me an idea of what i needed to do each week
but then i got behind and ended up changing the timetable every day
and then i lost the timetable. i think i got it mixed up with my working out paper for maths.
result; FAIL
the impossible schedule
the impossible schedule is that i give myself
impossible deadlines which make me stress out and stay up till 5 to finish.
but the point of impossible deadlines is that
they are impossible so ill obviously can't follow them
making myself guilt trip myself
to finish them eventually
e.g. 'ALISON YOU WERE MEANT TO FINISH THIS YESTERDAY AND YOU ARE STILL HALF WAY THROUGH! STUDY STUDY STUDY"
it kind of works, then i realised that they are actually impossible and i see through my own plan.
result; FAIL..
the 1/2 rest 1/2 study plan
this is implemented when i feeling particularly ceebs
when i can't be bothered to study at all
so i use the
'study for one hour, rest for another, study for another , rest for a hour"
i use this especially in holidays
so i guess it kind of works. but its no where enough study for normal days i guess
so.. yeh.
result; its okay if you aren't meant to be studying your arse off. good for those 'ima take a rest but do a little bit of study coz im nerdy like that"
the 'use food for motivation' plan
this ends up in two ways
starvation because i never get anything done.
or just eating too much coz i make the rewards like..finished every part of a maths question.
and then i just focus on eating and not on doing the question.
and it isn't very useful because if mum is at home
ill obviously have dinner
so even if i don't do any work
ill still get to eat.
so there isn't much of a punishment
so.. i never end up studying, as i know my reward will come anyway. do you get what i mean?
so the result? yeh.. FAIL.
the daily deadline
this usually comes in the form of
'you have to finish bla bla and bla today before you go to sleep'
this kind of is related to the impossible schedule only this is a day to day basis.
sometimes it works. but mostly it doesnt'
because i just go 'meh ill just do it tomorrow'
so the result i give this is... 20% success rate?
the 'clock is your friend' plan
this is where i promise myself that ill study until the little hand goes to the 7, or 10 or whatever.
but then i just end up looking at the clock every 3 minutes and realising that time goes soo slow.
and then i start procrastinating. and focused on making time go faster rather than studying.
and i calculate every single minute of my study. so i can go to sleep thinking 'i did like.. 5 hrs of study today. YAY'.
but like.. a lot of study isn't how long you've study, it is more like what u have studied that is more important. no one cares if u spent 10 hours learning polynomials. that the easiest topic ever. u suld of only spent 1 hr
so yeh.
i guess it sometimes works. more often than the daily deadline. so
result; 40% i guess.
the 'computer is your enemy plan'
this is when i attempt to stay off the computer for the whole day
this NEVER SUCCEEDS.
therefore.
result; FAIL
ok ok.. so i kind of modified it to no msn/noyoutube/no facebook.
which is working well. since i seem to be able to keep off msn quite well.
nothing good is on youtube
and lok yun hijacked (requested by me) my facebook.
so that kind of means the result is SUCCESS FOR ONCE. but . not really coz its a dodgy plan. the internet is still very much distracting. for example. my blog.
the sleep or work plan
this is what i tried to do today but it failed as well
its my theory that
i suld either be working or sleeping.
so i dont' feel like working, i suld just sleep.
and then i realise i spend all my day sleeping
and then at night time i study for like 2 hrs and think 'hey ima go on msn because that always keeps me awake" which is true
msn is my coffee. it has the miraculous ability to never make me get sleepy.
and yehh
i just end up sleeping a lot. and not working
soo therefore
result; FAIL.
and ultimately there is only one plan that really works for me.. and that is..
last minute plan.
which is basically the exam is the next day and you have to study
and i will
like 10 hrs a day no problem.
so therefore even with my 8 day weekend. ill probably stick to the plan that always works. leaving it to the last minute and CRAMMING.
yay success!
anyway im off to study
ciao for now
